i need to stop looking at others artwork... it makes me feel insecure about myself and thats why i won't upload any pictures on here cause they all suck in my mind... i think all i need is just some motivation which i only get from my mom... my friends tell me that i suck all the time but i don't want to be friendless so i just suck it up and keep going. My dad told me that he liked something that i drew and i felt really good i just wanted to start crying. I was never so proud of myself for doing something! i weish he would do it again, i've never been one to talk to him much my sister is the one that hangs out with him so i never really talk to him. My mom is the only one that ever gives me motivation and if i ever try to talk about it i start crying like i am now, and she just says, "suck it up your a man", that doesn't help. i pretty much get all that i want with time, thats why im so patient but i just cant fit it in my mind to love anyone. i wrote short story today i will upload it later